Me Vs... Mental Health

This is something that's always been an issue for me.  There's so much stigma attached to mental health issues & the amount of times I've had 'oh, she's mental' said to or about me is impossible to count & so called friends always bring up my mental health or crazy behaviour as an insult in arguements because they know it's the one thing that'll hurt me.  I think people seriously need to think about what they're saying when they throw around comments like this.  For my entire life I've always felt 'different' to everyone else, I think & act differently, I'm a lot more obsessive & emotional, I struggle a lot more with friendships (see previous post) & day to day activities & interactions than your average person would.  Simple things like phoning to make an appointment or walking into a shop myself are difficult & people never understand this & force me to do such things anyway without realising how big a deal it is for me.  Anyway, I've been to see numerous psychiatrists, psychologists &doctors & been pushed from pillar to post being told everything from I'm making it up/exaggerating it to I 'have a bit of everything' without any real answers.  I found out last year I have aspergers (form of autism which at least gave me some closure that it wasn't all in my head but didn't make it any easier to deal with, obviously for something like that there is no cure, it's frustrating because people don't understand it & as a result of that I feel depressed & upset most of the time.  I also have severe self confidence issues about my personality & the way I look.  I always feel inferior to everyone else in looks & attitude & I have a permanent complex about not being 'normal' or good enough for people to want to associate with.  People tend to get to know me then run a mile after I drunk message them a few times, act inappropriately, get upset & dramatic or just generally go off on one & this makes me feel even worse so it's a total catch 22.  I wish people would understand that I don't intentionally act like an idiot to annoy people, it's something I genuinely can't change or help, it's part of who I am & I guess this links on to my previous post to some extent in that it's taken me a while to figure out the people who genuinely accept me, even then I still question it.  The point of this post is that I want people to take a step back & put themselves in my position where I'm constantly struggling to live an average life & coming up against barriers.  I'm my own worst enemy & I have to live with myself.  People need to remember that none of them are perfect & that they all have their moments, maybe not as extremely or as frequently as me but it happens.  So the next time, before you label someone 'mental' or judge or avoid them, think about what's going on in their head & how that's going to affect them.